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so here's the school off to our right
这是我们右边的学校，
you look through there you can see the
你从那里往外看，你可以看到
auditorium we would rehearse in one of
礼堂，我们会在
these permanent
其中一栋永久性
buildings so I went to Chatsworth High
建筑里排练，所以我和凯文一起去了查茨沃斯高中，
School with
Kevin I got involved with the drama
我加入了戏剧
club the actor with a outsized
俱乐部，演员有一个超大的
reputation was Kevin
名声在外的凯文
·
Fowler everybody seemed to like him as
福勒（Kevin Fowler）似乎每个人都喜欢他，
well as recognize how good of an actor
也认识到他是一个多么优秀的演员，
he was he was already planning to be
他
successful at that age in high school he
在高中那个年龄就已经计划取得成功，他
was going to adopt his middle name as
打算用他的中间名作为
his last name his middle name
他的姓氏，他的中间名 名字
spy his personality was often
间谍他的个性经常
inspiring jumping and yelling and
鼓舞人心地跳跃、大喊大叫和
stamping and also just goofing off with
跺脚，也只是
with us I was a kid who didn't Focus
和我们一起闲逛我是一个不太专注的孩子，
very well I wasn't really all that
我并不是
academic I didn't really care that much
那么好学，我不太在乎
about classes I was a bit disruptive I
课程，我 有点捣乱，我
was the class clown
是班里的捣蛋鬼，
I would have been 16 17 at the
我当时应该是16 17岁
time and uh Kevin was a year
，呃凯文比我大一岁，
ahead my interest was in girls and
我的兴趣是女孩，
anything theater related was just really
任何与戏剧有关的事情
exciting for
对
me taking pictures was my way of
我来说都很兴奋，拍照是我捕捉瞬间的方式
capturing the
moment the people
Kevin here pretending he's going to
Kevin 假装要
choke me to death for continuing to take
掐死我 继续
pictures ah Greg you're so weird I've
拍照啊格雷格你太奇怪了我
really watched you grow as a person and
真的看着你作为一个人和
a
performer Ma you have come out I wish
表演者的成长马你已经出来了我祝
you all the luck in the world you're a
你一切好运你是一个
pretty strange guy but cool stay good
非常奇怪的人但很酷保持好
always Kevin
总是凯文·
Fowler I don't recall if he wrote this
福勒，我不记得他是否在
in my yearbook
我的毕业纪念册上写过这个，
um before the incident in the car or
嗯，是在车上发生事故之前，还是
after we were having a drama party at
在我们在一个学生家里举行戏剧派对之后，
one of the students houses and Kevin
凯文
asked for a ride so I had a
要求搭车，所以我叫了一辆
car picked him up and we headed over to
车去接他 我们前往
the party and on the way to the
派对，在去派对的路上，
party he made a a physical advance in
他在车里对我进行了身体上的侵犯，
the car which was extremely
这让我非常
uncomfortable I'm
不舒服，我当时在
driving and he's in the passenger seat
开车，他坐在副驾驶座上，
reaching
伸手
over to get a
过来感受我的身体，
feel he grabbed my
他抓住了我的
genitals definitely with with intention
生殖器，绝对是有意的
and with
并且有
purpose Just sh and surprise
目的的只是 sh 和惊讶
and I was in a sense
，我在某种意义上被
trapped it was a very aggressive sexual
困住了，对于那个年龄段的人来说，这是一种非常激进的性
move for that age group there was no
举动，没有像
consent as we ask for today or as we
我们今天要求的那样或像我们
expect today I had no idea that he was
今天期望的那样征得他的同意，我不知道他
interested in
me sexually or
我有性兴趣
or anything other than just as another
或者其他什么，而不是像另一个
theater kid like he
戏剧孩子一样，就像他
was later on in the evening at the party
后来在晚上的聚会上那样，
he then cornered me pleading to
然后他把我逼到角落里恳求我
not mention what had happened in the car
不要
to
anyone at that age in Chatsworth it was
在查茨沃斯，那个年纪的人是不能向任何人提起在车里发生的事情的，公开同性恋身份是
not accepted to be
不被接受的，
outwardly
gay it was not a common thing or an
这不是一件常见或被
accepted thing
接受的事情，
he was planning to move away to pursue
他正计划搬走去追求
acting so I didn't think I would ever
演艺事业，所以我想我永远不会
see him again after that school year
anyway so there was no need to drag his
无论如何，在那个学年之后再见到他，所以没有必要把他的
name through any
名字拖入任何
Scandal I told him I
丑闻，我告诉他我
wouldn't just to not you know do
不会只是不做
anything
任何
else and he didn't
其他事情，而他没有
the Hollywood star Kevin spacy is found
好莱坞明星凯文·斯派西被判
not guilty of sexually assaulting four
无罪 性侵四名
men the actor broke down in tears as he
男子，当这
was cleared of all nine
九项指控全部被宣告无效时，这位演员泪流满面。
charges I would like to say that I'm
我想说，我
enormously grateful to the jury for
非常感谢陪审团
having taken the time to examine all of
花时间审查所有
the evidence and I am
证据，我
humbled by the outcome
对结果感到谦卑
today the star Leaves Court an innocent
今天这位明星离开了球场，他是一个无辜的
man he will hope he can resume a career
人，他希望他能重新开始他的职业生涯，
that reached the highest
达到最高的
levels he just had these little dead
水平，他只是用一双死气沉沉的小
eyes looking at me and I just felt like
眼睛看着我，我感觉就像
I was staring into like a soulless
在盯着一个没有灵魂的
monster
怪物
it was cold in a way that almost was
很冷 几乎是
inhuman your first reaction is not
非人道的，你的第一反应不是
violence do you feel like you brought it
暴力，你觉得这是你自找的吗？
onto yourself and you feel
shame it was all about I can do this I
可惜都是关于我能做到我
can do this to you I'm Kevin
能对你做到我是凯文
spacy now we've become accustomed to
spacy 现在我们已经习惯了
Hollywood stars coming over here to
好莱坞明星来这里
tread the boards well the Oscar winning
表演，奥斯卡获奖
actor Kevin spacy has taken his love
演员凯文·斯派西 把他
affair with the British theater one
与英国戏剧的热爱带到了
stage further so find myself in the role
更高的舞台，所以发现自己担任
of director of the Old Vic is beyond my
老维克剧院的导演超出了我
wildest
最疯狂的
imagination the Old Vic was on its last
想象，老维克剧院已经走到了
legs but then when Kevin came on board
尽头，但当凯文加入时，
it became the place to
它就成了
be he was the Cash Cow if you like the
他是摇钱树，如果你喜欢
true test is whether he can get the
真正的考验是他是否可以让
punters through the doors and earned
赌客进门，并为
this place the money it so desperately
这个地方赚到它迫切
needs holes in the roof mean the
需要的钱，屋顶上有洞意味着
audience has to dodge the
观众必须躲避
rain who's going to buy you know a
雨水，谁会买你的 知道一张
£25,000 ticket at a Gala to come and S
25000英镑的盛大晚会门票，
the Old Vic unless there is the
除非有
opportunity to be near the luster of
机会接近
this Hollywood star
这位好莱坞明星的光彩
I sort of got to the end of you know 99
我差不多到了你知道99年
American Beauty had come out and I was
美国丽人已经出来了，我
like well that kind of went better than
感觉比
I could have hoped now what am I
我能想象的要好 我希望现在我
supposed to do and I just thought no I
应该做什么，我只是想不，我
think I want another
想我想要另一个
dream when I first arrived at the or VI
梦想当我第一次到达或 VI 时，
I was very excited to see him on stage
我非常兴奋地看到他在舞台上，并向
and learn from someone who was you know
一个
very
非常
talented he just had stage presence like
有才华的人学习，他刚刚 他的舞台表现力
no other person he knew how to
无人能及，他知道如何
manipulate his audience to you know kind
操纵观众，让他们着迷，
of almost have them under his spell it
was a dream you know it was a dream for
这是
the Old Vic a dream for
老维克剧院的梦想，也是
everybody listen I wasn't doing anything
每个人的梦想，听着，我没有做任何
glamorous I was selling ice creams I was
光鲜亮丽的事情 我当时正在卖冰淇淋，
helping people get to their
帮助人们找到
seats and uh during this time there was
座位，呃，当时正好有
a Pantone going on called
一场 Pantone 展览，叫做《
Cinderella it was a very family
灰姑娘》，气氛非常融洽，
atmosphere but it was a really really
但这是一场非常
great
非常棒的
show I was working in the stores on the
展览，我在右边的商店工作
right hand side it was my job to guard
我的工作是守卫
the door to check who was coming in and
门口，检查谁进来，
and so he come back into the stores and
然后他回到商店，
just watch and and then all of a
只是看着，然后突然间，
sudden
he like had somehow wedged his whole
他不知怎么地把整个
body inside this tiny little Gap like
身体塞进了这个小小的缝隙里，
like right here I didn't even know you
就像对吧 我甚至不知道
could fit a person in this little Gap
这个小缝隙里可以容下一个人，
because it really was just a kind of a
因为它真的只是一个
Cove where the Usher would sit and I
海湾，引座员 会坐着，我
remember just like moving like slightly
记得就像移动一样，稍微
over thinking oh maybe he doesn't
思考了一下哦，也许他没有
realize like how much Gap there is you
意识到那里有多大的差距，你
just see the brightness of the stage and
只看到舞台的亮度，
everything is very very
一切都非常非常
dark but
暗，但
then and because of where I was sitting
后来因为我坐的地方，
and he was
standing I felt like his whole groin
站着的时候，我感觉他的整个腹股沟都
push on my face
压在我的脸上
there's someone that I had tremendous
有一个人我非常
respect
尊重，
for and he was pushing his groin on my
他在我工作的时候用他的腹股沟压在我的
face during whilst I was
脸上，
working whilst the pantoon has gone on
而当时 pantoon 已经
with families and children and I
和家人和孩子们一起表演了，我
could smell
可以 闻到
him I could feel him getting pleasured
他的味道，我能感觉到他为此而感到愉悦，
by
it I froze just in a a way that I I
我僵住了，动弹
couldn't
不得
move and I just felt so
，只觉得自己很
small I started to get like scared of
渺小，我开始害怕
coming to work is it going to happen
上班，
again today he had this like look of
今天还会这样吗，他有这样的表情
intent now with me since that incident
自从那件事发生后，
that still kind of haunts me like like
我一直有种想念，就像
he owned part of me there was continual
他拥有了我身体的一部分，
moments where he he would like touch me
他经常会
like from behind or brush himself across
从后面抚摸我，或者
me in a way that was completely
以一种完全
Uninvited I remember like a pressing a
不请自来的方式抚摸我，我记得 就像是压
form of like something like going inside
进
of my my my
我的
trousers and just being like like jolted
裤子里一样 就像被震动了一样，
like perked and I remember it getting
就像振作起来一样，我记得它
closer and closer and more
越来越近，越来越
intimate and like
亲密，就像
oh God I
哦天哪，我的
mean I just thought what have I done to
意思是我只是想我做了什么才
deserve this you
值得这样，你
know how can you get on that
知道你怎么能登上那个
stage how can you sleep at
舞台你怎么能在
night it's
晚上睡觉，这
just such an invasion
只是一个 入侵
of a human being I just felt like a
人类时我感觉自己就像
piece of meat that was it was no
一块肉，没有
relationship it was all about I can do
关系，只是我能做到
this I can do this to you I'm Kevin
这一点，我能对你做到这一点，我是凯文·
spacy please say hello to Kevin
斯派西，请向凯文·
spacy so how long have you been in
斯派西问好，那么你已经来多久了
London now I moved there in uh 2003 not
我在 2003 年搬到了伦敦，
only have they uh welcomed you over
他们不仅欢迎你去
there but um the print the royal family
那里，而且
they gave you a a necklace
他们还给你戴了一条项链，
it's uh what metal is this it's uh this
那是皇室的标志，是什么金属，那
is a it's it's a little Royal
是皇室的
bling yeah and what it's called is it's
饰品，是的 它被
called a CBE CBE which is an honorary
称为 CBE CBE，这是一种荣誉
Knighthood there it's actually it's
爵士头衔，实际上
rather nice to see on Jimmy Kimmel that
很高兴看到吉米·坎摩尔因
he had received an award from the royal
family for his services to British
对英国戏剧的贡献而获得皇室颁发的奖项，
theater it really hurt I think we can't
这真的很伤心，我认为我们不能
underestimate the power he has and had
低估了他拥有和拥有的力量
and I think that was a moment when I
，我认为那一刻我
knew I couldn't speak
知道我不能说话
up morning everyone how is everyone how
早上好大家好吗大家
are you let's just keep moving around uh
好吗让我们继续走动呃
and we might do an exercise that I
我们可能会做一个我
rather like Central to his artistic
更喜欢的练习中央到他的
Mission at the old Vick is his
老维克的艺术使命是致力于
commitment to developing new audiences
and emerging Talent through the old
通过老
Vic's new voices program it was about
维克的新声音计划开发新观众和新兴人才，这是关于
sending the the elevator back down and I
让电梯重新下降，我
always love that saying that's why I
一直很喜欢这句话，这就是为什么我
still burn into my
仍然会铭记
memory if you've done well in the
在心，如果你有
business you wanted to do well in if
在你想做好的行业中做得很好如果
you've been successful then it's your
你已经成功了那么你就
obligation to spend a good portion of
有义务花大量的
your time sending the elevator back
时间把电梯送
down he would say it in interviews and
回来他会在采访和
all sorts of promotion material that was
各种宣传材料中这么说这就是
the philosophy that the great Jack Lemon
哲学 伟大的杰克·莱蒙
passed down to me I'll never forget when
传授给我的这些我永远不会忘记，当
I was just 13 I got the chance to do a
我只有 13 岁时，我有机会
workshop with Mr Lemon and after I did a
和莱蒙先生一起参加一个研讨会，在我拍完一个
scene he walked up to me he put his hand
场景后，他走到我面前，把手放在
on my shoulder and he said that was a
我的肩膀上，然后他 说那真是
tou terrific and it was really the
太棒了，这真的是我
beginning of discovering my own
发现我自己的潜力的开始，
potential we were aiming at um young
我们 针对的是
people aging 18 to 26 uh welcome to the
年龄在 18 到 26 岁之间的年轻人，欢迎来到
fourth year of the Old Vic new voices
老维克新声
24-hour plays Gala he was always you
24 小时戏剧盛典的第四年，他总是
know giving good advice and they were
能给出很好的建议，
always so star eyed and wide eyed they
他们总是那么眼花缭乱，
were like they were like puppy dogs you
就像 小狗你
know drinking from the Fountain of you
知道从知识之泉喝水
know knowledge we're all big fans of
我们都是
Kevin CU we most of us go to juliard
凯文·科罗拉多大学的忠实粉丝我们大多数人都去朱莉亚音乐学院
where Kevin long ago it's really great
凯文很久以前那真是太棒了
cuz we're front row right now and we can
因为我们现在就在前排我们可以
touch him if we wanted to anybody
触摸他如果我们 想对任何人
anybody anybody anybody don't be shy
任何人任何人不要害羞，
it's always interesting when I'm in a
当我在
workshop and I'm always looking for the
研讨会上时，我总是
shy kid in the corner cuz that was me
在角落里寻找那个害羞的孩子，因为那就是
when I grew up and I started doing these
我长大后开始做这类
kinds of
Workshop we're invited to go and do a
研讨会时的样子 我们被邀请去
workshop
with Kevin at the Old Vic it's amazing
老维克剧院和凯文一起做一个工作坊，这真是太棒了，
we're standing on the stage and we're
我们站在舞台上，和
with Kevin spacy and there's this
凯文在一起，那一刻有一种
feeling of anything's possible in those
一切皆有可能的感觉，
moments because you're rubbing shoulders
因为你
with such
和这样的人并肩而行
success we sat down on the floor in a
成功后我们坐在地板上
circle all together first say your name
大家围成一圈，先说自己的名字
and something about yourself sort of
和一些自我介绍之类的
thing and I was lent back like this and
话，然后我就像这样被借回来了，
the first thing I recall happening is
我记得发生的第一件事就是
that Kevin put his hand on my hand then
凯文把手放在我的手上，然后
we all got up and started taking in
我们都站起来，开始
turns to do the scene work and the thing
轮流 做场景工作，
I remember about that particular moment
我记得那个特定时刻的事情
is seeing him look like he was
是看到他看起来
interested in the scenes but actually he
对场景很感兴趣，但实际上他
was sort of just working his way around
只是在房间里走来走去，用
the room putting his arm around what
胳膊搂着
seems to be the most handsome guys in
看起来最帅的男人。
the space one of them he hugged quite
其中一个人被他紧紧抱住
aggressively and then a little bit more
，然后
time goes on and it's my turn to do my
过了一会儿，轮到我
scene and then Kevin came right into my
表演我的戏了，凯文直接进入了我的
personal space and I remember being held
私人空间，我记得
by by him both my arms were held and he
他紧紧抱住我的双臂，他
whispered uh in in my ear something
在我耳边低声说了些
along the lines of you don't give a [\h__\h]
类似这样的话：你根本不在乎
about what she has to say you just want
她说什么，你只想
to [\h__\h] her in the
操她的
ass I just felt his body up against my
屁股，我感觉他的身体贴着我的
body
身体，
I think his penis was against my leg I
我觉得他的阴茎贴着我的腿 我的
mean it's it's
意思是，这太
horrible the cynical part of my brain
可怕了，我大脑里愤世嫉俗的部分
says that we were all invited under
说，我们都是在
false
虚假的
pretenses uh to do a scene study
借口下被邀请去做一件
on the play they were doing but actually
他们正在表演的场景研究，但实际上
he was just there deciding who who he'd
他只是在那里决定他接下来
like
想
to to flirt with
和谁调情，
next this is more than a job
这不仅仅是一份工作，
because I'm finally doing something that
因为我终于在做一些
is outside of my own career and bigger
超出我自己职业范围的事情，而且
than
比
myself and I'm able to see the effects
我自己更重要 我每天都能看到
it has on people's lives every single
它对人们生活的影响，
day so I was in my fourth year at school
所以在我上四年级的时候，
where he came in to do a workshop
他来开一个
on Shakespeare monologues it was huge I
关于莎士比亚独白的研讨会，这对我来说意义重大，
was I was thrilled and I wanted him to
我很激动，我 想让他
think that I was good he came over to me
觉得我很优秀，他走过来
encouraging me and saying he said well
鼓励我，说
if you ever want to work on any of your
如果你想要练习一下你的
audition
试镜
material we could do that it struck me
材料，我们可以这样做，我觉得这是
as such an extraordinary offer he was
一个非常好的提议，他正在
trying to find a way for us to meet up
努力寻找一个 我们见面的方式
and I said oh I'm going to see the third
，我说哦，我要去看三
year performing their
年级表演的
Shakespeare um so I can't and he said
莎士比亚，所以我不能去，他说
well we can go
我们可以一起去，
together so you know we're in this dark
所以你知道我们一起在这个黑暗的
theater together he would just very
剧院里，他会 非常
casually but frequently lean over to me
随意，但经常在他旁边靠过来
next to him and sort of whisper in my
，在我
ear very close frequent enough and close
耳边低语，非常频繁，非常亲密
enough and lingering enough that it was
足够多，足够持久，这
pretty clear and and then if that wasn't
很清楚，如果这还
clear him putting his hand on my thigh
不清楚，他把手放在我的大腿上，
and into the inner part of my
伸进我
thigh was crystal clear I felt this was
大腿内侧，这很清楚，我觉得这是
about Pursuit and sex it brought up all
关于追求和性，它带来了
kinds of those emotions of guilt and
各种各样的 那些内疚和羞愧的情绪，
shame and somehow I let this happen and
不知怎的，我让这种事情发生了，
that those feelings sort of supplant or
那些感觉取代了
or kind of grow over top of thinking he
或者超过了我认为他
should be
应该感到
ashamed it was about a 6-month period
羞愧的想法，大约有六个月的时间，
where I would say every couple of weeks
我会说每隔几周
or so I would get
左右 我会收到
voicemails he was running the Old Vic at
语音邮件，他当时正在经营老维克剧院，
the time so he wasn't always
所以他并不总是在
around hey I'm in town and I've got this
身边，嘿，我在城里，我要参加这个
party hey I'm in town and I'm going to
派对，嘿，我在城里，我要去参加
this Premiere and hey I'm in town and
这个首映式，嘿，我 我在城里，
I'm staying at this hotel with tennis
住在有网球场的酒店
courts and we could play and have a
，我们可以打球，
steam in the steam bath afterwards I
然后去蒸汽浴室蒸个澡。我
don't want this I'm not interested in
不想要这个，我对这个不感兴趣，
this I'm creeped out by this but he's
我对此感到毛骨悚然，但他
still this person who has power and
这位拥有权力和
influence and who was literally my
影响力的人，上周还是我的
teacher last
老师，
week it's really hard to feel as though
这真的很难让人接受 就好像
you can say no to that person if he's
你可以对那个人说不，如果他
willing and interested in exploiting
愿意并且有兴趣利用
that kind of power position for you know
这种权力地位来满足
his own desire
他自己的欲望，
I just don't think
我只是认为
that's
那是
right and this is Kevin my brother and
不对的，这是凯文，我的兄弟，
we were both just standing there looking
我们都站在那里 在那里
off into the distance
望着远方，
we just seemed to have bonded so closely
我们似乎已经如此紧密地联系在一起，
for so many years we were
这么多年我们一直很
close but as soon as you introduced our
亲近，但是一旦你把我们的
parents into the formula the Dynamics
父母引入这个公式，动力就
just became
变得
stifling
squished I think what happened to us how
令人窒息，我想我们发生了什么事，
we drifted apart this makes me
我们是如何渐行渐远的，这使得
sad in 1969
1969 年那年
it was the
summer that's when it first
夏天，事情刚
started my father took me up to the
开始的时候，我父亲把我带到
master
主
bedroom and raped me he ass sodomized me
卧室，强奸了我，他鸡奸了我，
he gave me oral
还给我
sex I was screaming for my
口交，我大声呼喊我的
mother and my mother came upstairs and
母亲，我的母亲上楼时，
the bedroom door was
卧室的门关上了
locked she goes what's going on in there
锁上了门，她说里面发生了什么事，
my mother's banging on the door and and
我妈妈在敲门，
my my
我
father put his arm up against my neck
爸爸用胳膊顶住我的脖子
and threw me against the wall and says
，把我扔到墙上，说
don't say a word and then all of a
不要说话，然后
sudden there was
突然间一片
silence and she just walked
寂静， 她
away I was only 13 14 years
就走了，当时我只有13岁 14
old this kind of nonsense went on for
岁时，这种胡闹持续了好
years
几年
and it wasn't until
，直到
1971 I just
1971 年，我才
said
说不，
no this has to stop
now and I threatened him and I said if
现在必须停止这种行为，我威胁他说，如果
you ever lay a hand on Kevin I'm going
你敢碰凯文，我就要
to tell
告诉
mother and that was the last sexual
妈妈， 那是最后一次性
abuse
虐待，
when I moved out in
当我在 1975 年搬出去时，
1975 I kind of felt guilty but I
我有点感到内疚，但我
couldn't take it any
再也忍受不了了，
longer what about Kevin what's going to
凯文怎么办，
happen to my little brother but then I
我的弟弟会怎么样，但后来我
started thinking about it realizing that
开始思考这个问题，意识到
how close my mother was to Kevin that I
我的母亲 对凯文来说，我
thought that she would protect
以为她会保护
him I just had to take a chance that he
他，我只是要冒险，希望他
would be
会
okay but just because he was being
没事，但仅仅因为他受到
abused doesn't mean that there wasn't
虐待并不意味着他没有
psychological trauma going on within him
from the
因为
strange family life we
奇怪的家庭生活而受到心理创伤 我们
had it is only in the theater experience
只有在剧院的经历中
that you can create
才能建立
families and really lasting
家庭和真正持久的
relationships so having moved to London
关系，所以搬到伦敦
the Old Vic it's the best job I've ever
老维克剧院后，这是我做过的最好的工作，
had because I get to bring people
因为我可以把人们聚集
together and and be a part of creating a
在一起，并成为创造一种
family I wanted to be the best in the
家庭 我想成为世界上最好的
world I got an agent and then I had an
我找到了一个经纪人 然后我参加了
audition for World War Z with Brad Pit
试镜 僵尸世界大战和布拉德皮特
stay
保持
close oh the guy with the
密切联系哦那个拿着
gun nice little closeup
枪的家伙不错的小特写
I got a call from my agent and it was uh
我接到了我的经纪人的电话这是
an offer sweet birad of Youth at the
一个在伦敦老剧院的甜蜜青春之鸟的邀请
oldc in London there's not many gigs in
在剧院里没有多少演出
theater land that are better than a
比这更好
summer show at the Old Vic so I just put
老维克剧院的夏季演出，所以我
everything into
it and being the youngest in a cast like
全力以赴，作为最年轻的演员，
that the pressure on that I put on
我给自己施加了压力，
myself don't [\h__\h] this up do a really
不要把事情搞砸了，做得
good job and you might get to do this
很好，你可能会再次这样做
again in a Kevin Spacey show at the oldc
在老城区的凯文·史派西秀上，
everything's building up to that press
一切都为那个新闻发布会做准备，
night as close as you can get to a
就像
Hollywood
好莱坞
Premiere so I go over into my dressing
首映式一样，所以我走进
room and um there's a knock at the door
化妆间，嗯，门外传来一阵敲门声，
Kevin's assistant comes in and says Rory
凯文的助理进来了，说罗里，
this is from Kevin and I opened the box
这是 来自 Kevin，我打开了盒子，
and it it had a little card from Kevin
里面有一张 Kevin 寄来的小卡片
and it said
，上面写着
Rory happy opening k
Rory 开箱快乐，
and and a
还有一份
gift I don't know how much it cost but
礼物，我不知道它值多少钱，但这
it's an
是一张《
original poster of sweet bread of Youth
青春甜面包》的原创海报，
and there was a real silence in the
上面有一张 房间里一片寂静，
room I felt a little bit embarrassed if
我感到有点尴尬，如果
I be
[Applause]
[掌声]
honest so show finishes and there's
演出结束后，
immediately the Press night after party
马上就是新闻发布会，
we made our way down to the
我们走到
seavo when you walk
海边，当你走进
in on your left you have the nation's
去的时候，在你的左边，你会看到
photographers from every newspaper
来自全国各家报纸的摄影师在
getting photographs of people and
拍摄人们的照片，
there's people standing there from the
还有一些演员站在那里
cast famous people who had been invited
受邀
to the Press night and I see
参加新闻发布会的名人，我看到了
Kevin and so I did what I felt like I
凯文，所以我做了我觉得
had to do
必须做的事，
I walked up to him and I put my hand out
我走到他面前，伸出手，对他
and I said thank you so much for the
说，非常感谢
gift Kevin
凯文送给我的礼物，
and he pulled me in very close with his
他 用他的右手把我拉近，然后把
right
hand and sort of turned me 45
我转了 45
degrees now I don't know that that was
度，我不知道他当时是不是
to hide from the cameras but I only
为了躲避镜头，但我
assume that was what he was trying to do
猜他当时是想这么做，
and he put his left hand down by
然后他把左手放下来
my my my bum
我的屁股，
uh and he he stuck his middle finger as
呃，他把中指尽可能地伸进
far up me as he as
我的身体，
possible
um I was wearing a suit
嗯，我穿着西装，
so he took up the recess material and
所以他拿起了凹陷处的材料，
just tried to go up through my boxers up
试图从我的内裤里伸进去，
inside me I just totally froze he pull
我完全僵住了，他
pulled me in closer in his ear in my ear
把我拉近，在他耳边，在我耳边，
he whispered don't worry about
他低声说，别担心，
it he did that and then he just like a
他就是这么做的 然后他就像
shark just moved straight through and
鲨鱼一样径直穿过，
and moved
into Kevin mode at a press night so went
在新闻发布会上进入凯文模式，然后去
and took
pictures and it's horrible to know that
拍照，这太可怕了，你知道
like you're doing that one second the
你前一秒还在做这件事，
next minute you're carrying on that
下一分钟你又在继续做这件事，
nothing's
什么都没有
happened it feels like you're
感觉就像你是
invisible I can see all the
隐形的，我可以看到所有的
photographers and it's just there's like
摄影师，就像有
all these eyes and all these faces and
这么多的眼睛和这么多的脸，
you're moving through them and you just
你在他们之间移动，你只是
want uh someone to help
想要呃有人来帮助
you I
你，我
stopped putting in work for
不再为
auditions staying in bed all day you
试镜而努力了 整天躺在床上，你就
just go like
that what's the
那样，
point there was a naivity there of
有什么意义呢，你当时天真地
feeling like you were on a mission to
觉得自己肩负着
become the best actor in the world but
成为世界上最好的演员的使命，但
as soon as you get made to feel like
一旦你觉得自己
that
那么
small you're almost muted you know your
渺小，你就几乎被压制了 你知道你的
voice gets smaller I didn't feel like I
声音越来越小，我感觉我不是
was in environment if I did tell someone
处在这样的环境中，如果我告诉别人，
they would have believed me or even
他们会相信我，甚至
supported
支持
me this was a London theater with an
我，这是一家伦敦剧院，有一位
aess
star and they worshiped
明星，
him from that point on I don't see my
从那时起他们就崇拜他，我不再这样了 我看不到我的
career is anything else other than just
职业生涯除了在
sort of darting around the edges of
quite
相当
substantial uh addiction issues and
严重的成瘾问题的边缘徘徊之外还有什么其他的 和
relationship
关系
issues now to Washington's obsession
问题现在到了华盛顿
with a show that happens to make
对一个节目的痴迷，这个节目恰好让
Washington look like a den of vipers
华盛顿看起来像一个毒蛇窝，
yeah it's called House of Cards and it's
是的，它叫做纸牌屋，可以
available on Netflix and it stars Kevin
在Netflix上观看，主演是凯文·
spy
斯皮特
Netflix was the DVD delivery company
Netflix是一家DVD交付公司，就像
that like my parents signed up
我的父母一样 签约
for they had transitioned into streaming
后，他们已经转型为流媒体，
and then Netflix is now going to be
然后 Netflix 现在将
making their own TV shows and the House
制作自己的电视节目，而《
of Cards was one of the first Netflix
纸牌屋》是 Netflix 首次
has made a loud and pricey statement
高调宣布
that they've arrived uh betting $100
他们已经到来的电视剧之一，他们押注
million on a project with Kevin
1 亿美元 与凯文·斯派克一起的项目
spy welome back my guest tonight Academy
欢迎回来我的嘉宾今晚奥斯卡
award-winning actor his Netflix series
获奖演员他的Netflix系列
now showing its second season is called
现在正在播放第二季，名为《
House of Cards welcome back to the
纸牌屋》欢迎回到
program Kevin
节目凯文·
spy Kevin spy was on every Chat Show he
斯派克凯文·斯派克参加了他参加的每一个脱口秀节目
was on The Daily Show and John Stewart
每日秀和约翰·斯图尔特
loved him you mock your Valiant piece of
喜欢他，你嘲笑你身上勇敢的一面，
you un you
你却在
conniving it's so
密谋，这
good so my role in relation to Kevin is
太好了，所以我和凯文的关系是，
I was the first team PA on set which
我是片场第一个团队助理，这
meant that I had eyes on Kevin pretty
意味着我几乎一直都在关注凯文，
much all of the
time I had never been so close to a
我从来没有这么 关闭 对于一位能够
performer that commanded the room in
掌控全场的演员来说
such a way and I was just so blown away
，我被深深震撼了，
by it it was the literally last scene of
这是第二季的最后一幕，
season 2 Frank has finally become the
弗兰克在
president through all of the scheming
经过所有的阴谋诡计之后终于成为了总统，这是
and he's taking his first moment inside
他第一次进入
the Oval Office you just see him
椭圆形办公室 你只看到他
settling into this like power he has
努力工作，终于获得了权力，
worked so hard for and at the very end
但在最后，
of it he just looks dead into camera and
他只是直视镜头，用
smacks his fist on the
拳头猛击
table you felt the oxygen all the oxygen
桌子，你感觉到房间里所有的氧气都
in that room focused on him and cut
集中在他身上，然后切断
nice it was like oh this is how you win
很好，就像哦，这就是你赢得
Oscars I'm having the time of my life
奥斯卡奖的方式我
working on it literally every day is
每天都在为此而努力，这
just a joy to work on
真的是一种乐趣，
well I I wish things were uh that
我希望事情能如此
ruthlessly
efficient that's true I was look Kevin
高效，这是真的，我看凯文·
spacy I think man this guy's getting a
斯派西 我觉得这家伙做了
lot of stuff
很多事情，
done I loved working on House of Cards I
我喜欢在《纸牌屋》工作，
I adored working on that set but um the
我很喜欢在那个场景中工作，但当时
behavior that was going on also made it
发生的行为也让
a hostile work environment for a lot of
很多人的工作环境变得很恶劣，
people
I I thought he was like incredible you
我觉得他很不可思议
know he just had this this aura about
知道他身上有这种气质
him uh on screen but then we're on the
呃，在屏幕上，但后来我们在
other side of the
场景的另一边，就
set and right there in that moment I had
在那一刻，我在
workplace I was inappropriately touched
工作场所被不恰当地触碰了，
it was kind of shocking it was like
这有点令人震惊，就像
seeing something someone just kind of
看到某人
shift in front of you and I just
在你面前移动一样，我 只
remember he just had these very cold
记得他的眼睛非常冷酷，
eyes like empty
就像空洞无
soulless I caught him in this moment
灵魂的，我抓住了他，那一刻，
where it was the real
这是真正的
Kevin the issue of Kevin was certainly
凯文，凯文的问题当然是
wellknown it was like oh yeah that's the
众所周知的，就像哦，是的，这就是
thing that's what happens here the
这里发生的事情，
issues surrounding Kevin were typically
围绕凯文的问题通常
with men both myself and the base camp
与 我和大本营
production assistant we were both women
生产助理都是男性，我们都是女性，
it's all very coded but it was implied
这一切都非常隐晦，但
to me that it was to account for the
对我来说，这是为了说明
fact that there was quote unquote you
存在所谓的
know bad behavior and they wanted to
不良行为，他们想
make sure that they weren't putting
确保他们不会 我不会把
someone in too close proximity where it
某人放得太近，以免
could happen
again I would often see him walk up to
再次发生这种事，我经常看到他走向
performers walk up to like background
演员，走向
actors we had on set and he would you
我们在片场的背景演员，他会
know kind of get very close and clearly
走得很近，很明显地和
be like engaging with them in this way I
他们互动 我
would see him you know put a hand on
会看到他把手放在
like an arm and like talk about their
胳膊上，然后谈论他们的
muscles you know there would be kind of
肌肉，你知道会有
that kind kind of grabby flirtatiousness
would happen if he felt like he could
如果他觉得可以
get away with it there were crew members
逃脱惩罚，就会发生那种贪婪的调情行为，让一些机组人员
that were made to feel very
感到非常
uncomfortable so one of the the feelings
不舒服，所以
that you get when you're a woman in this
当你是一名女性在这种环境中时，你会有一种感觉
environment where you're used to being
你习惯于成为
the one who's the target is wow at least
目标，哇，至少
it's not me but then you're seeing it
不是我，但你看到它
happen to other people and that's not
发生在其他人身上，这不是
that's not something you want to be
你不想发生的事情，
happening
either we had a crew member who Kevin
我们有一个船员，凯文
was particularly fixed on he was he was
特别 他
spending so much time going up to this
花了很多时间去找这个
person and trying to engage with this
人，试图和
person cying to engage with this person
这个人交流，
that that person's boss actually moved
以至于那个人的老板实际上把
them off of set because he's the
他们赶出了片场，因为他是
executive producer he's your boss and so
执行制片人，他是你的领导，所以
if he comes up to you and wants to
如果他 走到你面前，想要和你
engage in conversation you're in some
聊天，你在
way obligated
某种程度上有义务这样做，
to it puts you in a really weird head
这会让你的思维变得非常奇怪，
space where you're kind of waiting to be
你有点等着
like what's bad enough where like
something has to be done about this
这件事已经够糟糕了，需要做些什么来解决它
there's some way I can insert myself to
我可以以某种方式介入以
kind of save them it was not clear what
拯救他们，但不清楚
you could do you could
你 可以做你可以
call
打电话给
Netflix it just seemed like he was
Netflix，看起来他是
Unstoppable Kevin was getting a lot of
势不可挡的凯文
praise for his uh role in House of Cards
因为他在纸牌屋中的角色而获得了很多赞誉
he won the Golden Globes Award he won
他获得了金球奖他获得了
the sad
悲伤的
award my favorite Kevin
奖项我最喜欢的凯文
spy yes
间谍是的
thank you thank you uh I I just want to
谢谢你谢谢你呃我我 只是想
talk a little bit about the theory of
谈谈相对论，
relativity
um yeah because apparently they say that
嗯，是的，因为显然他们说
if you're in an elevator you don't know
如果你在电梯里，你不知道
whether you're going up or going down
你是在上升还是下降，
but right now it feels like I'm going up
但现在我感觉我在
thank you very
非常感谢
much I was invited to go to the baa
我被邀请参加 baa
batania Awards
batania 颁奖典礼
and um would you please welcome two-time
，请您欢迎两届
Academy Award winner Kevin
奥斯卡奖得主
spacy all of a sudden Kevin spacy comes
Kevin Spacy 突然出现
on
在
stage this is 10 years
舞台上，这是 10 年
later and I had not seen him since these
后， 自从这些事情发生后，我就没再见过他，
incidences and my heart just sank to the
我的心沉到了
floor you wreck part of my
谷底，你毁了我的
life and there was a this whole room
生活的一部分，整个房间的人都
adoring
崇拜着
you and I thought 10 years have gone
你，我想 10 年已经
past what more is he
过去了，他还做了什么
[掌声]，
done and that whole weekend was a blur
那整个 周末很混乱，
because the
Friday was the
周五 是
event the
Saturday I told my
星期六我告诉我的
mom and the Sunday the news broke
妈妈的事件，星期天晚上新闻爆出，
tonight there is a scandal swirling
around actor Kevin spacy the Hollywood
演员凯文·斯派西卷入了一场丑闻，这位好莱坞
star accused of sexual misconduct spacy
明星被指控性行为不端，斯派西
allegedly forced himself on a future
据称强迫自己与未来的
Broadway star Anthony rap well we have
百老汇明星安东尼·说唱，好吧，我们有
the reporter who broke this story Adam D
报道该事件的记者、
very of BuzzFeed news Anthony RAB was
BuzzFeed 新闻的 Adam D very 和 Anthony RAB 对哈维·韦恩斯坦性丑闻爆发后站出来的
very much moved by the number of women
女性数量感到非常感动
who were coming forward in the wake of
the Harvey Weinstein Scandal and he felt
，他
like as he said he was really awake to
觉得自己真的意识到了
the moment we're living in now I think
我们…… 我们现在的生活，我认为
Kevin spacy stands out in the first few
Kevin Spacy 在“
months of the me too movement because he
我也是”运动的头几个月里脱颖而出，因为他
was the first prominent man to have an
是第一个
allegation brought against him by
another man within a couple hours of the
在 BuzzFeed 报道发布后几个小时内被另一个人指控的知名人士
BuzzFeed story
publishing Kevin spacy released a
Kevin Spacy 发布了一份
statement in a statement spacy says
斯派西在一份声明中表示，
quote if I behaved then as he describes
如果我的行为符合他的描述，那么
I owe him the sincerest apology for what
我欠他最诚挚的道歉，因为这是
would have been deeply inappropriate
极其不恰当的
drunken Behavior tweeted he does not
醉酒行为，他在推特上表示，他不
remember the alleged encounter which WRA
记得 WRA
detailed in an interview with BuzzFeed
在接受 BuzzFeed 采访时详细描述的所谓遭遇，
still Spacey says he's Beyond horrified
斯派西仍然说 他
by the story and he says it has
对这个故事感到无比震惊，他说这
encouraged him to do something he's
鼓励他做了一件
never done before publicly acknowledged
以前从未做过的事，公开承认
that he is gay there was a great deal of
自己是同性恋，这一声明遭到了
push back from the lgbtq community for
LGBTQ 社区的强烈反对
that statement
[音乐]，
it's a real shame that after many many
这真是太可惜了
opportunities that Kevin spacy did have
凯文·斯派西有很多机会
to come out in a positive way he ended
以积极的方式出柜，但他
up coming out in what has been a very
最终却以一种非常
negative
消极的
way as a queer person myself Kevin's
方式出柜，作为一名同性恋者，凯文
decision to come out on the back end of
决定在这些指控之后出柜
these accusations that were brought
against him by other men was frustrating
被其他男人嘲笑很令人沮丧，
because it felt like it was being being
因为感觉像是被
used as a
当作一种
distraction I don't know what Kevin
分散注意力的东西。我不知道 Kevin
spy's intentions were with that
Spy 说这句话的意图是什么，
statement but that was how it was
但
received by a lot of
很多
people that's warped that's
人就是这样理解的，这太扭曲了 这是
wrong no one knows what Journey you can
错的，没有人知道你能或不能走上什么样的旅程
or can't take in coming out and it's
，
different for everybody but which is all
每个人的情况都不一样，但这
the more reason to continue to pursue it
更有理由继续追求它，
until you find a way to live with
直到你找到一种与自己相处的方式，
yourself and not hate yourself for being
而不是因为自己是谁而恨自己
who you are that's what the coming out
你是 这就是出柜的
process is and that's why I really worry
过程，这也是我非常担心
about spacy's health because where is
spacy健康的原因，因为他为什么会这样
his head in with this since he came out
想，因为他出柜是
to defend himself against accusations he
为了为自己辩护，他
not said a word about the gay community
对同性恋群体的指控只字未提，他对自己
about being a gay man about how it feels
是同性恋的看法
feels to be an out gay man that's that's
感觉自己是一个公开的同性恋者，但这
not in this conversation and that to me
不在这次谈话中，对我来说，这
is very
是非常
suspect I thought Kevin spacy's
可疑的，我认为 Kevin Spacy 的
statement seemed strange he's half
声明似乎很奇怪，他
apologizing for this allegation that
Anthony rap is making but he's now also
Anthony Rap 提出的这一指控表示了一半的歉意，但他现在也
using this as a moment to come out as
利用这个机会来
gay and to me that was just a red flag
对我来说，这只是一个危险信号，表明
that he was trying to deflect from
他试图转移话题，不去关注
something
bigger I shut myself in this small
更大的问题。我把自己关在一间
little conference room and I called
小会议室里，
hundreds of people over the next two or
在接下来的两三天里，我给几百个人打了电话，和
3
days I was talking to all sorts of
各种各样的人交谈。 这些
people who had either worked on House of
人要么曾经参与过《纸牌屋》的制作，要么
Cards or who were actively working on
正在积极参与
the show
制作。
I eventually landed with eight people
我最终找到了 8 位
who were willing to share their stories
愿意与我分享他们的故事的人，
with me but under the condition of
但在匿名的情况下，
anonymity a lot of the people that I was
我采访的很多人都
speaking to were just starting out their
只是 在好莱坞开始他们的
careers in Hollywood and they just
职业生涯，他们只是
weren't emboldened and empowered enough
没有足够的勇气和能力
to feel like they could take on someone
去接受
as powerful as Kevin
像凯文·斯派西这样强大的人，
spacy and so we published the piece and
所以我们发表了这篇文章，
I had no idea what was about to happen
我不知道接下来会发生什么
Netflix has fired actor Kevin spacy from
Netflix 解雇了《纸牌屋》的演员凯文·斯派西
House of
Cards Netflix has confirmed House of
Netflix 已经确认《纸牌屋》
Cards will resume production next year
卡片将于明年恢复制作，
but without the show's main star Kevin
但没有该节目的主要明星凯文·
spacy that week there was a uh stream of
斯帕西，那一周有一系列
other stories and
其他故事和
allegations we've got some disturbing
指控，我们今天早上收到了一些令人不安的
new accusations being leveled this
新指控，
morning against Oscar winner Kevin
针对奥斯卡奖得主凯文·
spacio it's one of a number of explosive
斯帕西，这是众多指控之一
allegations labeled against the actor in
最近几周针对这位演员的爆炸性指控
recent
weeks the effects of the allegations
against Kevin spacy firebombed his
对凯文·斯派西的指控毁了他的
career his agency and his publicist
职业生涯他的经纪公司和公关人员
dropped
放弃了
him several Uh Kevin spacy projects that
他几个呃凯文·斯派西
had already been shot were either
已经拍摄的项目要么
dropped or dumped but is Hollywood being
被放弃要么被抛弃但好莱坞是否
too quick to judge turning its back on
太快下结论
the Oscar winner before formal charges
在正式提出指控之前就背弃了奥斯卡奖得主，
have even been made next thing you know
接下来你知道，
there are these allegations coming from
这些指控来自
across the pond overseas in the
英国海外，
UK 20 people have claimed they were
20 人声称他们是
victims of inappropriate behavior by the
actor Kevin spacy following an
演员凯文·斯派西不当行为的受害者，此前 这
investigation by the Old Vic theater in
伦敦老维克剧院
London the Old Vic apologizes
老维克剧院向那些
wholeheartedly to the people who have
told us they've been affected everyone
告诉我们他们受到了影响的人们诚挚地道歉 每个人都
needs to feel that they can speak out no
需要感觉到他们可以说出来
matter who they are thank
无论他们是谁 谢谢
you the reason I've never really spoke
你是我从未真正说
out about it was out of out of uh
出来的原因 那是出于
fear yeah fear of not being believed
恐惧，是的，害怕不被相信，
this stuff doesn't happen to guys at
这种事不会发生在男人身上，
least that's what I thought um until I
至少我是这么想的，直到我
experienced what I did on House of Cards
经历了《纸牌屋》里
when you're gay it's like oh well oh
同性恋的经历，感觉就像哦，好吧
isn't just like being at a gay club I
不只是在同性恋俱乐部我
even remember someone said oh lucky
甚至记得有人说哦你很幸运
you lucky
me would you say that to a
我很幸运你会对一个
woman these stories just kept coming but
女人说这些故事一直在发生但
Kevin spacy kept retreating and becoming
凯文·斯派西一直在退缩并且变得
more reclusive and then all of a sudden
更加孤僻然后突然间
he put this bizarre you video up of
他把这个 奇怪的是，你拍了一段视频，
himself standing in what appears to be
他站在
his kitchen wearing an apron and he is
厨房里，穿着围裙，
channeling his house of cards character
模仿纸牌屋里的人物
Frank Underwood I know what you want oh
弗兰克·安德伍德，我知道你想要什么，
sure they may have tried to separate us
当然，他们可能试图把我们分开，
but what we have is too strong it's too
但我们所拥有的太强大了 太
powerful when I saw it I I felt
强大了，当我看到它时，我感觉
physically ill he knows best that we
身体不舒服 最清楚我们
want him back and that's so
想要他回来，这太
pompously um
夸张了，
egotistical that it just makes me
自负了，这让我很
angry of course some believed everything
生气，当然有些人相信一切
and had just been waiting with baited
，只是屏息等待着
breath to hear me confess it all but you
听我坦白一切，但你
wouldn't believe the worst without
不会在没有证据的情况下相信最坏的情况，
evidence would you did
对吧
you I remember
你还记得我
feeling so judged by watching this of
看这个的时候感觉被评判了吗
course they're going to say I'm being
当然他们会说我很不
disrespectful not playing by the rules
尊重人不遵守规则
like I ever played by anyone's rules
就像我以前从来没有遵守过任何人的规则
before
I never did and you loved it he's
我从来没有这样做过而你喜欢他把
merging art and life in a really really
艺术和生活融合在一起 非常非常
distasteful way what is he trying to
令人反感的方式他想
prove here he's proving that he can't
在这里证明什么他在证明他不能以他
speak as himself he can only speak as
自己的身份说话他只能以他扮演的角色
the the person the Puppeteer behind the
背后的操纵者的身份说话
character that he's
playing we now know that there was all
我们现在知道背后发生了所有
of this turmoil going on behind the
这些混乱
scenes
years later in legal documents we find
几年后，在法律文件中我们发现，《
out that media rights Capital the
production company behind House of Cards
纸牌屋》的制作公司媒体版权资本
was going after Kevin spacy they were
正在追逐凯文·斯派西，他们
headed into season 6 and they've lost
即将进入第六季，却失去了
their main star essentially MRC is
主要明星，MRC 基本上是在
saying look we had to rewrite the show
说，看，我们不得不重写 表明
we had to shorten our season and it cost
我们有 缩短我们的赛季，
us you know millions of dollars because
of your inappropriate behavior on the
因为你在片场的不当行为，我们损失了数百万美元，
set this arbitration Court does their
这个仲裁法庭做了他们
own independent investigation and they
自己的独立调查，他们
depose several individuals who claimed
传唤了几名声称
that Kevin
凯文·
spacy touched them in a sexually
斯派西以不恰当的性方式触摸他们且未经
inappropriate manner that was not
consensual the arbitrator finds through
同意的个人 仲裁员通过
their interviews that this is a pattern
采访发现，这是
of inappropriate behavior that spans the
贯穿该
first five seasons of the show and they
节目前五季的不当行为模式，他们
say that they find these individuals
说，他们发现这些被
that they deposed to be credible and
他们证实的人是可信的，
that the allegations against spacy are
对 Spacy 的指控是
true the arbitration case did not find
真实的，仲裁案件没有 发现
that Kevin spacy had done anything
Kevin Spacy 做了任何
criminal but what they did find was that
犯罪行为，但他们发现
Kevin was in breach of this harassment
Kevin 违反了骚扰
policy
政策，
therefore he was responsible
因此他要
financially to the production company
对制作公司承担经济责任。
two years later this case finds itself
两年后，该案件
in front of a judge in the Superior
在加州高等法院的一名法官面前开庭审理。
Court of California because Kevin spacy
因为 Kevin Spacy
and his legal team they appeal the
和他的法律团队对
arbitrator's decision and this judge
仲裁员的裁决提出上诉，而这位法官
agrees with what the arbitrators found
同意仲裁员的裁定，
and agrees that Kevin spacy owes media
并同意 Kevin Spacy 欠媒体
rights Capital over 30 million
版权资本超过 3000 万美元，
this judgment is incredibly significant
这项判决意义重大，
because to have it written right there
因为要把它写在那里，
in black and white this is the first
白纸黑字 这是 Kevin Spacy 第一次
time that Kevin spacy has been held
accountable for his
因他的
actions Mr how do you feel Mr spy how
行为而被追究责任，先生，您感觉如何，Spy 先生，
you feeling right now there was no
您现在感觉如何，没有
battery there was no party and nothing
殴打，没有聚会，什么都没有
happened and the jury believed that by
发生，陪审团相信，根据
preponderance of the evidence more
优势证据 更有
likely than not that it did not
可能的是，这并没有发生
happen he called the case weak said the
他称这个案子很弱，说那些
men were after money or lying or in one
人是为了钱或撒谎，或者在一个
case he just mistakenly made a pass in a
案件中，他只是在
moment of real life drama the jury
现实生活中的戏剧性时刻错误地通过了陪审团
agreed with
同意
him hearing the verdict it was truly
他听取的判决 这确实
devastating but it doesn't mean that we
令人心碎，但这并不意味着我们
all have to be silent I can't give up on
都必须保持沉默，我不能放弃
myself and my truth and others shouldn't
自己和我的真相，其他人也不应该
have to
either it is not easy to reconcile the
放弃，要接受
not- guilty verdict of of the trials
with my own personal experiences from
以我
high school with Kevin I'll still know
高中时与凯文的亲身经历来审判我仍然会知道
that what happened to me happened to me
发生在我身上的事发生在我身上，
even though it absolves him of having
即使这可以免除他
committed a crime in those cases uh I
在那些案件中犯下的罪行，我
know that his behavior is not morally or
知道他的行为在道德或伦理上是
ethically
acceptable you know he grabbed me and I
不可接受的 知道他抓住了我，我
tried to act like it was nothing and it
试图假装什么事也没有， 我觉得
was something like it's something I
这是我
shouldn't have went through I wouldn't
不应该经历的事情，我不会
see it as anything criminal I just did
认为这是犯罪行为，我只是
think it was just kind of like
觉得，作为
disgusting behavior from a professional
一名专业人士，在片场处于那样的境地时，做出这种行为是一种令人厌恶的行为
to have on
set when you're in a position like that
right power celebrity money like you
对的，权力、名人、金钱，就像你
have to be even better than the average
必须比普通人更好，
person because you're capable of so much
因为你有能力造成比普通人
more damage and so much more
更多的伤害和
destruction than the average person he
破坏，他
wasn't responsible with that
没有对这种
power he used it like a
权力负责，他把它当作
weapon when I heard the verdict it was
武器，当我 听到判决结果，我感觉
like getting punched in the face but
就像被打了一拳，但
that sense of disappointment and anger
那种失望、愤怒
and upset crystallized for me the need
和不安的感觉让我意识到我需要
to come forward and tell my
站出来讲述我的
story the Baton was almost passed to me
故事，接力棒差点就传到我手中，
to say you take it up now you push this
让我接过它，现在就把这个故事讲出来
story
forward the message to Kevin has to be
把信息转发给凯文，一切都
it's over you know it's over for you
结束了，你知道一切都结束了，
because enough enough of us know and
因为我们中有足够多的人知道，也
enough of us agree that this is wrong
足够多的人同意这是错误的
and it can't keep
，这种事情不能再
happening I have to respect the judicial
发生了，我必须尊重司法
system but I know his behavior needs to
系统，但我知道他的行为 需要
change it did not come from his gaining
改变，这不是因为他获得了
power it's who he is my greatest fear
权力，而是因为他是判决后我最大的恐惧
post verdicts is that this will Empower
这将使
him to do it again to feel emboldened in
他有勇气再次这样做，在
a sense and that can't be e
某种意义上，这是不可能实现的。